My love you are gone
You have left me truely this time
You have met another man
You have forgotten me
Took less time than I thought it would
Yet here I am still hanging on to the love we had
I will never get over you
I just hope life will bring me someone give me enough love to not remember
The love we once.
The love you once made me feel.
I hear them words in my head
I miss the love you made me feel
I miss not feeling alone
I don’t miss you
I miss not being the only one in the bed
I miss curling up with you
I miss your kisses
I don’t miss you
I miss your eyes looking at me
I miss your smile
I miss the songs u played
I don’t miss you
I heard them words again
I wish i didn’t miss you
I am lost for words to describe you
I don’t have enough words to describe you
You took me out of the box I was living in
You are teaching me to live in this harsh world
I wish I had given you more love than I did
I wish I could love you like I want to
I wish things had never ended for us
I wish we could begin like my heart desires
You are the best thing that ever happened to me
You are the best thing to walk into my life
I wish we never went our separate ways
I wish we could be together
You never understood me
You can never understand me
Life just left me with nothing
Only desires left unfulfilled
I should have held you close
I want the courage to face you in the light
The idea of love has always given me a hope of finding peace and happiness in life. May be that is why I go searching for love even when I strongly feel love is not found by searching, but love will come looking for you. But this heart of mine is not patient, therefore I have become a victim of imaginary love.
I am different, not your average Joe but knowing this is feels like the biggest cruse when you need to hold you heart back of whom it desires, for love felt only by one and not reciprocated by another causes nothing but harm. But the saddest part is the other person not knowing the existence of the love. You don’t have the courage to confront this feeling and you settle for the imaginary love. The question I ask, must the other person know? Why can’t I be selfish and just take all the feeling this imaginary love can give me? The good feeling, the hurt, the sadness, everything. What is wrong in feeling all this. I will have to move on till then, let me drown myself in this imagined love. Something is better than nothing. And this thought has made a willing victim out of me.
via Daily Prompt: Imaginary
I should not be wishing for you to be mine. I know. But when I am with you I don’t feel alone, being with you cures me and I feel happy. Can I not be selfish?
I have always been drawn towards you, from the day I first saw you. That innocence, that smile, had me captivated. I was wishing, if only I could make you mine right then and there. From then on, I have maintained my distance because I feared this wish would become what it has become, a crush. I can feel me holding you though I never have. I can feel your lips on mine, wish it would become the reality. I blame you. You shouldn’t have taken those steps towards me.
I always knew that you and I are worlds apart in every way. I want to tell you what my world is like but you are a private person and so am I. I don’t want to throw myself at you when I can clearly see you holding yourself back. I wonder what your expectations were out of me. I wonder what you thought of me then and what has changed now. I never said no to you. I still can’t. But I can feel the distance increasing between us these days, it’s like you are taking your steps back and I am walking towards you. Should I stop? I should. I need to. But I don’t want to. Why do I feel like this is what you want? I see that but when I see your smile, I don’t want to let you have what I think you want. I wonder if it is you or the puppeteers. But that does not matter, you are an adult and your actions are your decisions.
But my wishes still remain, to hold you, to care for you, to feed you, to make you feel my love. Sad fact is, that is not possible. I thought I saw something in your eyes, I thought you felt something for me. May be you did, but you are loosing it for reasons I do not know. I think I was wrong, mistook things for what they weren’t. I think everything was drawn up in my head, I think everything was a wishful thinking. And now I am hurting.
The important facts are I will get over this hurt, I have accepted that we will never be a reality, I have accepted that we hail from two different worlds and we are not meant to be. I wish you the world, may you find all the happiness, peace and your heart’s greatest desires. Cheers!