truth be told i am lost
truth be told i dun want that to change
i don’t want to be found
i don’t want to get out into the sun
why face the truth
when walking along the shadow cast by it gives u peace
I rather look at the curious eyes, confused laughter, innocent smile on a warm hearted person
Look at the ever changing demeanor, judging eyes, sarcastic smile on a good hearted person with the good intent.
The world is cruel, indifferent, cold and harsh.
And i would like to forget that more than anything,
For i have a sad heart that need healing
Either I am drunk,
or you are
when we meet these days.
You are lost,
so am I
that is something we have in common.
You have your story,
I have mine
Someday let’s make one whole story.
let’s be in this drunken state
where everything is shaken.
I had accepted this loneliness. My mind had already accepted and gotten over this. I was okay. Being alone was okay. Loneliness didn’t bother me. But that was then. After I was together. And now i am alone again. Here i am in now feeling lonely and
I don’t want to be alone.
I have to learn again. I have to learn. I have to be okay in this loneliness.
You proclaim your love by writing on a snow blanket.
But the thing about snow is they melt away.
Your proclamation is going to melt into nothing.
Is your love going to disappear into nothing as well?
When the sun hits you the hardest,
because it will,
is your love going survive?
Do you know?
Has it happened to you? All you can hear are others voices in your head. Your mind is crowded. And you are desperately looking for your own voice. Your own thoughts seems to be lost.
I am trying to find my own thoughts! My own voice! My own!
Three years since we met, more than a year since we went our separate ways. And still this heart wonders where you are, what you are doing, how you are doing. I lied to you the time we talked. I haven’t let you go. I have been trying to let you go. I am. I just haven’t been able to let you go. I don’t know if i want to, i dun think i want to because i feel guilty for tying to let you go. I feel sad for myself but i don’t want to break your heart again, instead i have been breaking other hearts. I don’t know. I am getting feed up with myself.
I wish we were together. I wish we were happy together. But now all i can wish for is that we find hapiness.
I never thought love would do this to me. But it has. Like i didn’t have enough of heartaches. Life is hard, god is cruel and i shall breathe again.