I love you. I want you. But that will never come into being reality.
We are not aligned to be together. I am gay and you are straight. But we are friends and our friendship is not going to be ruined because of this. Today I accept all of this. You still have my love and friendship. I want you to be happy. I want you to get everything you want in your life. I want to see you smile and happy. And being with her is going to do that for you so I will be rooting for you and your happiness.
I feel broken because this heart loves to dream dreams and dwell there. It knows the reality but likes to live in the idea of what it wishes to be. Today writing this down, I am baring and burying this into the depths of the reality. Because I deserve to be happy in this reality as much as you do. Because I can’t remain broken hearted. It is what it is, and I am not going to be a victim of this reality. I am going to rise above this.
You are going to be happy.
I am going to be happy.
We are going to stay friends.
I will support you all the way in this life.
Cheers my friend.
This is love.
Why are we complicated?
Why are we so emotional?
Do you know?
How would you?
You are busy killing yourself
You are your own biggest enemy.
You are lost in the happy ending that will not be
You are fight a fight you have already lost
You have been fighting alone
While he has been busy planning a future for himself.
I gave you my advice
I said throw him out
But I see you are still living in the lie
I don’t want to watch you kill yourself
You are heart broken
Your pack left you by yourself
I stayed as long as I could
I guess that was not enough
You have made your decision
You have shut me out
Now all I see is your dead face
For others you smile and you laugh
You pretend like I don’t exist
You think I haven’t noticed
When I asked
You said nothing
All I’m thinking about is why
Why are you doing this to yourself
Why am I so bothered by this
Why can’t I get you out of my mind
Why did I get shut out
When did you become this important.
I am sad
I want to help
But i’m cut in place hard to heal
How can I help you
When I can’t help myself
How can I give you everything
When I have nothing
Do you not understand?
Why the fuck are you so selfish?
So I have fallen from your graces
So I don’t matter
Did I ever?
What happened to the love that was thrown around?
Was it pretend?
It feels that way.
I thought it was real, guess it ain’t.
So i shall leave
So you don’t have to turn away anymore.
Love. All love. Lost. Gone with the wind.
All thats left is my bruised heart.
That will never trust again.
Back in solitude. Where it belongs.
Where it shall remain.
I rather look at the curious eyes, confused laughter, innocent smile on a warm hearted person
Look at the ever changing demeanor, judging eyes, sarcastic smile on a good hearted person with the good intent.
The world is cruel, indifferent, cold and harsh.
And i would like to forget that more than anything,
For i have a sad heart that need healing
All the people who have come into my life and left me have left me with songs. I love every song they have introduced to me! These people i opened my heart to but i guess we were never meant to be. And its okay. All i want is happiness for all of us. May we all be happy! Cheers!