This heart seeks for an assurance,
that things are going to alright,
that I will find the love of my life,
that I will find happiness in someone new.
But for now, I will smile with the happy moments I have in a friendship
For now, I will smile with all that I have.
And not dwell on what could have been,
Not what I wish I had.
Live in today,
Live in the now.
Yet this heart wants this tomorrow as well.
This heart is greedy for these moments of happiness.
There comes a time when, multiple times in life, you find yourself very lonely. You could be around people but you still chose to stay alone because them being around does not change the fact that I am feeling lonely.
Growing up I have been a loner, a sad fellow who always manage to hide the fact really well. I grew up to accept it, adjust to it and then I fell for someone. I mattered to someone. I was loved by someone. Life was beautiful, it was all colorful. I was happy and I knew it, felt it. I found great friends, I mattered to them. We drank, we sang, we enjoyed our times together. I was not lonely anymore. I was not sad. Sure I still had things that were bothering me but I was happy.
Things then went south. I lost of lot of thing. Reasons sometimes were me, circumstances, them but that does not matter. Because the fact that I’ve lost everything I had does not change now knowing these reason, blaming someone or times. I don’t know who I am anymore or what I’m to do right now. So my choice has become to stay alone. Try to find my peace. Try to find my stabilizing agent.
They say your happiness has to come from within, from you. But for some reason I am unable to love myself. The love has always come from others and them I have lost and along with them their love as well. I was trying to hunt for love but I forgot love is given not asked for.
Rejection has hurt me to the core
Rejection has shaken me to the core
But i have learnt to move on
I have learnt to live with it
With hope of better day
Days filled with happiness
With laughter and smiles
I have learnt to survive another feeling
I miss you in my life. I miss being happy. We were not perfect but most days we were happy. Now it is all in the past! Its gone.
All the people who have come into my life and left me have left me with songs. I love every song they have introduced to me! These people i opened my heart to but i guess we were never meant to be. And its okay. All i want is happiness for all of us. May we all be happy! Cheers!
They say life is what you make of it.
But then again think! If we could choose and customize our life before we were born so that we knew exactly what we signed up for, we would be so much happier.
You are my dying dream
You give me sleepless nights
You have troubled my heart
You have put me though hopeless times
But you have given me love
You have made me smile
You have given me a taste of happiness
And this is enough
That was enough