I fear I have become clingy, have I? I have been desperate for love, for companionships. Have I gone overboard? May be.
My expectations has grown and now I fear I will be dissapointed. So here I am taking a step back, breathe. As I give him space, I give myself space as well. I need to focus on myself now. I need to be desperate for my own peace of mind, love for myself and take care of my own well being.
I am enough.
What is the extreme loneliness you have felt?
I discover new extremes every time I find myself feeling lonely.
Are you surrounded by people?
I am, and it is same as then when I was standing alone.
Do you think they love you unconditionally?
If you thought yes, you thought wrong.
What lengths have you gone to try get rid of loneliness?
I sold my self-respect for moments of another body by me.
Have you begged for a presence?
I did and now I don’t know who I have become anymore.
Are you tired?
I am exhausted.
Here I go again, to revive myself.
I am happy for you
You have finally moved on
I told you it will be you
I told you, you need to
I finally listened to me, i guess
But my loneliness has intensified
I am lone.
I had accepted this loneliness. My mind had already accepted and gotten over this. I was okay. Being alone was okay. Loneliness didn’t bother me. But that was then. After I was together. And now i am alone again. Here i am in now feeling lonely and
I don’t want to be alone.
I have to learn again. I have to learn. I have to be okay in this loneliness.