struggles in life and within
What do you do when your family is your biggest source of chaos?
I fear my peace has been taken away
Why is it so hard for people to be nice to each other?
Why am I putting myself through this?
Why do I not run away?
I should. Or this will kill me eventually.
I’m a broken human being,
I look almost perfect from the outside
Inside, I am a whole another story.
This pain is so hard to handle,
God give me strength along with the hope you’ve given me
The energy is making me anxious, angry, tired, impatient, and depressed.
I’m feeling every thing
I want to run
Run towards the ray of hope
I fear I’m breaking down
Will I make it to the end of the tunnel?
One moment lead to another and here I am
And my life taken over by you
My thoughts is always on you
Wonder if you ate, slept
How you are feeling
My body yearns for you
Your touch
You did magic on me.
Now i will sleep
This is it, my final attempt at love
This is it
If this doesn’t work, I shall for forever kill my need to love and be loved
The last death
Of my heart
And with that I shall live the rest of my pitiful existence
At the start of this i asked for two things
One, never tell me to leave you
Two, talk to me, tell me everything
I have given you my word
To be yours
To give you this life
To wait for you
To be patient
And I can, I will
But I wonder, if you would be happier without me in your life.
Is it too late to ask you to leave?
Is it too late to stop talking to you?
Have I asked you for a huge sacrifice for my selfish need of being loved by you?
Baby, Im broken
Pieces of me dead and some decaying
Love, Is it right for you to settle for this?
I will be selfish and keep this hidden here
May be you will read this
May be you won’t
But I want to be selfish and try keep you for me
I might fail but I will try
If this is wrong, I will take all the punishments in next life.
But I want to be happy for the whatever time I have left this life.
I am in love, he loves me, I love him.
We are seven seas apart,
I can feel him, he can feel me.
It began spontaneously, out of the blue.
No expectation, just moments of bliss.
one that got away,
found his way back.
I still can’t believe.
Tides may have turned for sad little boy.
Time for some happiness, peace and love
First time in this sad life, I’m looking forward to being with someone,
Looking forward to life together.
I’m happy. He is happy.
Who would have thought this day would come for me!
Not me.
It is not anybody’s job to keep you happy. And it is not your job to keep anybody happy. All you can do is, come from a place a positivity, good intention, and love.
What is happiness? Do you know?
Happiness is joy, satisfaction, peace.
Happiness is being enough.
Happiness doesn’t necessarily come from within, it comes from the joy and smiles you see in the faces of people you love, family and friends.
Happiness is in acceptance of who you are
Happiness is in standing up for what you believe is right and accepting you are wrong. As thoughts change, acceptance is very much necessary.
Happiness is a moment
Happiness is a lot of things and nothing
This is me saying i miss you
This is me saying i love you and always will
This is me reliving our memories alone
This is me cherishing every single thing we experienced together
This is me thanking you for everything you have given me
This is me accepting that i might not see you again
This is me accepting what you wrote to me that day
This is me accepting your good bye
This is me understanding you in the point of your life
This is me taking deep breaths
This is me making sense of everything
This is me acknowledging that I’m broken, again
This is me trying to accept I need to move on
This is me telling myself I need to heal
This is me reminding myself to be more selfish now
This is me trying to figure it out
This is me trying to comeback to reality
This is me trying to let you go
This is me trying to let you go
This is me accepting I will forever love you
This is me realizing it wasn’t enough
Only love, never us enough.
This is never an easy question, what’s next? But this is a necessary question, or is it?
Life! I’ve been living life one day at a time for the past 7 years. I’ve been asking myself, “Is this it?”. Is this how life is meant to be lived? May be. I don’t have an answer. I don’t anyone does. Everyone has an opinion, a thought and that’s it. There is no fact. It is what you want it to be. So, what’s true for me?
Masters. Career. Love. Family. Where is everything headed? What’s next? I’ve been putting things off for the longest of time. Now I feel I need to start working on these things.
How do I start? Where do I start?
Were they love? What I felt back then, was it love? Or is this love? All i think is about him, and us. I have been completely taken over by this feeling like i have never known.
Im surprised and overwhelmed
Im mesmerized and happy
All my thoughts are about holding you, kissing you and making you feel all the pleasure and be enveloped by you.
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